Pair Roe Dee
Version 1
Woke up and realised what a beautiful day it was going to be. Summer had arrived. Light and shade collaborated, taking on the persona of a natural George and Ira, with the symphony played by an orchestra of birds. Annoying. Days should be filled with Misery, Pathos, Drama. Breakfast was a cup of cappuccino worthy of any small (yet oh, so exclusive) Italian cafe and a croissant that melted in the mouth- flaky and soft and buttery all at the same time- the very definition of a croissant. Not bad, not good, either. Will not be Happy. Happiness is for the Rest. Discovered that lecture was going to be delivered by Someone Who Knew Something.
He said "The world will be a better place because I have taught you this, now- that we are all born unequal, but some are more unequal than others", and my heart and mind and soul chorused "The world will be a better place because I have learnt this from you, now- that we will all die unequal, but some will be more unequal than others".
And yet. My tortured Soul, my insatiable Self. Walked away with a sense of the ephemeral, like the proverbial nomad discovering that a tantalising oasis had turned into a mirage. Attempted to take on the world in the afternoon, after emerging from a meeting of Do-Gooders("we don't know what the Third World looks like, but we know it should be exactly like the First and Second") having invented the Newer World Order. Single-handedly.
Night, time for introspection, disturbed contemplation. Ah, my Life- so Complex, and so Impure.
Version 2
Damn damn damn half an hour left - Look out of window - Darkness - 'Bukan dah nak summer ke?' - Make instant coffee-might-as-well-be-caffeine-filled-mud-rather-than-nothing - Shower hot thank God, kalau tak aku pecah-pecahkan shower ni sekarang jugak - Arrive breathless, 10 minutes after the PhD candidate has started talking about Economic Policy and Time Inconsistency- Him: "This is the Lost Function with Expected Inflation at 0 and a Stochastic Shock" - My brain, in collaboration with my mouth: "Huh?" - Arrive home - 'My God, what if people knew my life was nothing but this, this endless mundanity, day in day out day in day out. Will the world remain the same without me? Oh well, nevermind.' - Sit at computer - Pretend to have Wit - Nap - Damn damn damn too late five more days till project due - Pretend to have Consciousness - 'Malasnya nak pikir' - Lost hours, flushed down the bog of triviality - Chide self for pretentious pseudo-intellectualism (tautology) - Darkness - 'Where is the muse, what shall I tell the world today' - Attempt sleep - My Life, Not Bad After All.
No, I don't know what I'm talking about. No, I won't pretend to know. No, I cannot tell you. But I do know that you cannot take me seriously.
nads went at 23:17